Well. I did it.
I just killed off one of my characters.
This is kind of a big deal for me. I have been stuck on this scene for over a month, knowing what needed to be done but not wanting to do it. I’ve written scenes of violence before–that’s one of the main themes of my book, actually, the fact that my narrator is a killer.
And, in my first novel I did kill a character with a name, Victor, but honestly, he was written to die. That was different.
Today I killed of someone that I like, a character that I am going to miss. For the first time, one of the wrong people dies. I’m taking a couple days off from my day job and I am using them to try to get back on track with my writing, to force myself to get through this block I’ve had.
It worked, I managed to turn the corner on this scene. And once I put the words that I’d been dreading down I was able to get back into the book. I think I’ll be able to keep going now, to actually finish this thing.
I’d like to hear from other writers on this issue. When it came time to write the death of a character you like, how did you handle it? Do you feel the temptation to change things around, to see if the character could be saved? Did you find writing those words was harder than you expected?
And does it get easier?