I’m writing a graphic sex scene.
I really didn’t want to do this, but after protracted arguments with myselves, I’ve come to conclusion that it’s necessary. It’s actually something that has been lurking in the background since I introduced Godiva as a character, and as the love interest of my narrator.
I’ve been kind of tiptoeing around the subject, having some suggestive dialog and maybe a kiss and then discretely fading to black. But deep down inside, I always knew that was dishonest on a deep level. Because Godiva isn’t human, or, not entirely human. Specifically, she’s a hermaphrodite. (Yes, I use the female pronoun for Godiva. She was born fully human and fully female, and her body was changed in adulthood due to the effects of an alien symbiote.)
Now, her having become something other than entirely human is an important part of her character, and it’s an important part of her relationship with James. I’ve been letting the reader fill in the details of their sex life, and I think I’d continue to do that if it was a standard heterosexual couple–or even a standard homosexual couple.
I think, though, I really need to show them making love once, to let the reader experience the physicality from Jame’s perspective, because that physicality is important, particularly to set up a scene that will end the book. I need to make the sexual relationship real to the reader, and real as something that isn’t exactly like how other couples make love, but is as good and as important as other couples making love.
Well. It makes sense to me, anyway.
I don’t know how this is going to fly with my readers. I am trying to write this as tender and loving and erotic, but I may end up alienating some of them. I have learned two things though.
First, it’s easier for me to write about characters dying than characters having sex.
And second, I don’t think I’m going to let my mother edit this one.