You look frenzied, you look frazzled
Peaked as any alp
Flushed and rushed and razzle-dazzled
Dry your lips, damp your scalp
Now I can see you’re in a rut in
And I’m not one to butt in
But in fact I must say
If you’d take it easy, trust awhile
Don’t look blue, don’t look back
You’ll pull through in just awhile
‘Cause you’re on the right track
I really have been pushing myself too hard for too long. I have essentially been working two full time jobs for over a year, and something’s got to give. Realistically, I can’t plan on quitting my day job any time soon.
I need to get Cannibal Hearts off my plate. I am on the verge of launching the anthology projects in a big way, starting with Fauxpocalypse, and I have to give that the whole of my non-day-job-hours attention for a while. Once I have certain things set up and I can launch the book, I think I’ll get some breathing room because I’ll be waiting on submissions for the next two.
Cannibal Hearts is close to being in shape to release… or I could sit on it and wait until I have the time to do a major rewrite. As is, I don’t think it will disappoint fans of the first book. Still, I could make it a better book. I realize that now. Over the past year I have learned a lot.
On the other hand, I expect I’ll keep learning as I keep writing. I can envision myself continuing to rewrite this book forever and never actually releasing it.
When do we decide “good enough” is actually “good enough”? I can either finish up the mechanical editing and formatting and release it this month, or go for a structural rewrite which may not be finished this year, because I can’t give it my full attention right now.
And I need to rest. One way or another, I need to put this book aside. Publish it, or bury it until I can look it again. I’m really confused about this. I don’t think that it will have any effect on my sales–my world is just too outre to have broad appeal. So it’s not a question of money.
For my existing fans, though, do I send out Cannibal Hearts as is and use what I know to revisit James and Catskinner some time in the future, or do I keep trying to polish this one?
I don’t know.