Today I went to the monthly writer’s group at All On The Same Page Bookstore, and I three requests for signed books–one person bought both of them (you know who you are) and another person asked for a copy of Cannibal Hearts.
I signed them, and I wrote a little note. I never know what to say. I always figure I should write something pithy and profound, humble without being self-effacing, clever, but not too clever, some bit of wisdom that touch a person’s life without coming across like I think I’m some kind of guru. I want to be able to sum up in a single line what it means to me that people not only want my books, they want me to write in them, to put down my name and say, yeah, I’m the guy who wrote this!
I can’t do that.
I mean, I like to think that I’m pretty good at putting things into words, but this is a situation where words really fail me. I can’t say how much it means to me that people like my work and want more of it.
I mean, even just thinking about the idea of having fans makes me feel all mushy inside. Since I released Cannibal Hearts I keep seeing people posting that they have been waiting for this book, and I think, really?
I’m amazed, and I’m excited, and I’m pleased, and I’m so scared that the people who have been waiting for this book will be disappointed. I made it the best book that I could make it, and sometimes I think it’s pretty good, but other times I think it’s crap. I have several five star reviews for it now, but deep down inside I’m still waiting for the other shoe to drop.
This sounds presumptuous as heck, but seriously, more than anything else I want to be worthy of my fans. I want to make something good for people, something that will make people keep wanting more. Okay, I’ve got a lot going on, but I have actually started on Worms Of Heaven, it’s way too early to talk about even an estimate of when it will be out, but I want you all to know that I am going to write it, and by God I will make it the best book I possibly can.
Because you deserve it.
Thank you. Thank you so much. Knowing that people are reading and enjoying my work makes it all worth it.