Jeepers! It’s The Monster Of Moody Manor!

This is why Shaggy has to replace the leaf springs so often.

This is why Shaggy has to replace the leaf springs so often.

I’m bored.

BORED!

I know, I’m a terrible audience.  I’m about the worst reader that a writer could have.  I have the attention span of a flea.

It hurts my writing, too, because I am already bored with my new book, and I just started chapter two.  This does not bode well for Catskinner fans.

I hate it when I get like this.  I feel like a toddler, just saying, “I donnwanna!” about everything.

I don’t know what it is that I do want, and that’s the real problem.  I’m bored with everything.  I try to distract myself with games, books, movies, stupid Cracked.com articles, but nothing can hold my interest.

My writing is the worst.  I open the document, read over what I have written so far, and think, “Well, this is pointless.” 

It’s Sunday, and tomorrow I go back to my day job, and I really don’t want to go back to work without having accomplished anything over the weekend.  I know what my new novel is going to be about, and I have a pretty good idea where I need to go from here, but it’s boring.

I know, this is a symptom of depression.  I’m depressed about a lot of things right now, money chief among them.  All I want to do is go back to bed and sleep.  That isn’t going to help, though.

At times like this everything seems so damned pointless. Why do I spend my time writing when I don’t like doing it and I don’t get anything out of it?  It looks like I’ll get a royalty payment in October, which will be the first one of this year.  Forty-something bucks.  And it’s taken me ten months to get there.

So far I’m on track to make less money from writing in 2013 than I did in 2012, and I have two books out now.  I’m getting all kinds of good reviews on my books, people tell me how much they love them, but nobody’s buying the damned things. 

That lady who writes dinosaur porn is making more sales than I am.  Heck, the guy who wrote that e-mail about beautiful Russian girls who want to meet you is making more sales than I am.

Why bother?

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About MishaBurnett

I am the author of "Catskinner's Book", a science fiction novel available on Amazon Kindle. http://www.amazon.com/dp/B008MPNBNS
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22 Responses to Jeepers! It’s The Monster Of Moody Manor!

  1. kingmidget says:

    I get the boredom factor in writing. For me, it hits when I finally see the remaining path of the story and the ending. There’s something about that moment that I really struggle with. Part of writing is the process of getting there. That’s the fun part. Once I’ve figured it out … well, do I really have to finish writing it? And, if I have at that point in the writing, doesn’t that mean the reader is likely going to figure it out, too? That is the moment when writing a story gets boring for me. But I have to keep writing. I have to. There’s no option there. So, I keep writing the story until it’s done. You should, too. Because deep down, you don’t actually hate it.
    Regarding the money situation, I feel that pain as well. While I’ve had a bit more success with my first novel, nobody is buying the second one and it is a story that is twenty times better than the first. I’m monumentally annoyed that I can’t figure out how to get it moving somehow. So, I’ve come up with an alternative to publishing a novel once a year. Publish some longer short stories in between to try to get the volume up.
    We’ll see how it goes.
    Don’t give up. I’m in the middle of your second novel. It’s all good. I have that book at work. At home, I’m reading Stephen King’s newest (Doctor Sleep). I’d rather read yours than King’s.

  2. Well I just picked up Cannibal Hearts, and I expect more, so get cracking!

    I try to fight boredom writing with multiple concurrent projects. A short story here, some background exposition for my custom board game there, some work on my novel stalking me in the dark. Short stories actually seem to have a decent return on investment for the work involved (compared to low sales royalties that is) for ones that offer up front payment.

  3. MzSusanB says:

    You wrote that you know what the novel’s about and where it needs to go – *you* know the story. What’s boring is getting it out in physical form. But the story has to — needs to– be told, and only *you* can birth it.

  4. Jade Reyner says:

    I think there are some excellent comments here and I can safely say that we all feel your pain and by and large are feeling the same. I have been talking about it endlessly with my family, how to get the sales moving and it just seems to be a long hard slog! I’ve only had one royalty cheque and it was for less than yours is likely to be so take heart in that. And if you genuinely are bored then why not take a break – do something totally different for a while? You might find that the passion comes back and you can’t wait to get metaphorical pen on paper again?

    Failing that, visit the doctors and get loads of happy pills! Lol 🙂

  5. ABE says:

    Just be glad this isn’t trad pub, you didn’t just have your latest book rejected on the basis of the sales of the first two, that you don’t have an agent who isn’t speaking to you, and your books aren’t being remaindered.

    Go read Kris and Dean and Joe Konrath.

    Go remember how it felt to finish your previous two books.

    Go read your positive reviews.

    It takes time. It takes material. It takes faith. Lots of faith.

    At least you KNOW you can do it – you’ve done it twice before. Most people who start a novel never finish writing it, and most people never start to write one in the first place. You have the gift of not being boring when you’ve finished writing (I have no idea what your intermediate steps look like!) – this is not a gift from the gods given lightly.

    Heck – you got COMMENTS on a Sunday morning.

    If you can’t work right now, go bask. Read some of your own stuff. Read your favorite book.

    These things happen. You had to know them before you began – don’t give them any more weight than you did then.
    Alicia

  6. Good advice came before me. Sorry the sales have been bad. I’ve been told by a few long-term indie authors that this year has been bad for everyone, so it’s the industry and not your books. Wish I had some advice to get out of your funk, but I’m in one too. Find it hard to give advice that I’m not taking.

  7. Sue says:

    I stayed in bed today too long cause just couldn’t face it all.

    could I have the link to dinosaur porn by the way.

    I get distracted by everything. Like now replying here instead of paying bills.

    You’d really hate the book I’m reading though oddly I’m enjoying it–it’s almost 1000 pages… I’m not up to page 200 yet

  8. You’ve got Soob and Shag here. Now those two can’t be boring. 🙂

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