I’m procrastinating. I’m putting off writing because I don’t want to write the next scene.
Now, there is all kinds of advice out there about how to deal with this situation, some of which has worked for me and some of which hasn’t, and I know that I’ll get through this, just like I did when I killed off a character that I didn’t want to kill in my last book.
What I want to talk about is why I don’t want to write the next scene. It’s because I am going to put my characters through something that I don’t want to do to them.
I don’t have a problem with violence, even really horrific violence. I can threaten my characters with being shot, stabbed, burned alive, and pelted with electrified frogs.
I can get through sex scenes (although I blush and have to kind of peek through my fingers as I type–that’s tough to do, trust me).
Even betrayal, finding out that a trusted friend is the real enemy, I’m okay with.
I have a problem putting my characters in a socially awkward situation. It hurts me to write scenes where people are uncomfortable.
Now, trying to be reasonable spoiler free, I have Character A, who is a likable character, very popular with both the other characters and my readers. Then I have Character B, who is a total dick. Pretty much everyone dislikes Character B, except for Character A, who has a long history with Character B and still very much in love with Character B.
I just wrote the scene where Character A has learned that Character B has been killed. I’m okay with that part, I do pathos and tragedy well. What I don’t want to write is the other character’s reactions to the news. Because it’s going to get uncomfortable. They all know about the relationship, and they want to sympathize and offer support to Character A, but on the other hand, no one can think of much good to say about Character B.
I mean, no one is going to come out and say, “Well, he was a jerk and you’re better off without him,” because not even any of my characters are that brutal, but on the other hand if they say, “We’ll miss him,” it’s a lie, because they won’t.
So I’m messing around with other stuff and watching CSI to keep from having to deal with it. For the moment, that is. I’ll get back to work soon.
So how about you? Got any scenes or types of scenes that are really hard for you to sit down and get through?