June

This is last month’s picture, since I only have one more line on this month’s and it’s an unfinished story.

Current Stats:

* indicates stories written this year

Stories Published: 

Stories accepted: 

  • “My Foe Outstretched” (3,800 words, Science Fiction)
  • “Fragile” (4,600 words, Science Fiction)
  • “She That Was So Proud And Wild” (4,700 words, Dracoheim Universe Fantasy)
  • “The Hopeful Bodies Of The Young” (4,200 words, Dracoheim Universe Fantasy)*
  • “Replevin” (1,000 words, Memoir)
  • “What Lola Wants” (3,200 words, Crime Noir) *
  • “The Darkest Hour Of The Night” (3,500 words, Weird Horror)
  • “The Irregular” (3,700 words, SF Military)  *

Stories Out On Submissions: 

  • “The Lord Of Slow Candles” (3,700 words, Modern Fantasy)*

Stories Complete and Available:

  • “Conessa’s Sword” (4,500 words, pre-Industrial Fantasy)
  • “Watchman, Mark The Tide” (3,700 words, Weird Tale)*

Incomplete Stories: 

  • “The House Of Spectral Discipline” (10,000 words, Horror/Erotica)
  • “The Mad Fishmonger” (4,400 words, Kaiju Romance)
  • “A Dreadful Feast” (6,600 words, Zombie)*
  • “A Murder In Plague Town” (2,000 words, Medical SF)*
  • “Where Your Eyes Don’t Go” (2,200 words, Time/Alternate Universe Travel SF)*
  • “This Green And Pleasant Sky” (3,100 words, SF for an upcoming project)*
  • “To Wound The Autumnal City” (5,400, Dracoheim Universe Fantasy)*

This is a tough update because my initial impulse is to just give up on the whole project. I had two good months this year, a fair month, one that I struggled through, and then two unproductive months. It’s a struggle to remind myself that I intended this challenge as a learning experience, not as a pass/fail test.

Okay, so what have I learned?

Well, I can produce, when my head is in the right place. I have done some very good work this year. What I need to figure out is how to tell when my head is not in the right place and stop trying to force it.

Because I can write–and produce decent stories–when I don’t particularly want to write. I can write when I don’t feel inspired or particularly enjoy sitting down and doing it.

On the other hand, sometimes I simply can’t produce, and no amount of self-discipline will make me. That is the main lesson that I have learned, and it’s been a tough one.

What I really need to do–if I am ever to be a serious writer–is to learn what distinguishes “I don’t feel like working today” (which I can work through if I sit down and start typing) from “I can’t write now” (which means I need to walk away from the computer and do something else.)

Secondary to that is learning to give myself permission to walk away when I have to, without beating myself up about it and without falling into despair. It’s not giving up and it’s not permanent. Rest is part of the process.  And I expect (I hope) that taking the mental rest I need, when I need it, will lessen the down time that I have.

In any event, I am back at work now, on a new Dracoheim story, and it’s going well at the moment.

I’m back in the saddle again.

Fortune Favors The Bold! 

 

 

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About MishaBurnett

I am the author of "Catskinner's Book", a science fiction novel available on Amazon Kindle. http://www.amazon.com/dp/B008MPNBNS
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