Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you

So…

I have been very hesitant to come out and say in so many words, “I am working on a new book” because I have had so many false starts over the past year, but I think I’ve gotten to the point where I can say it.

I am working on a new book.  I think it’s time.  I’ve grieved for James and his friends for a year, and I think it’s time to move on.  I don’t think Sam is a rebound affair, I think we’ve got something that we could make work.

Samhain Jackknife is the son of the Fifth Lord of Nightmare and the Lady Bloodpox, a plaguebringer and daughter of Death.  Despite that, Sam has lived a very ordinary life on the Midworld, among humans.  He’s kind of a supernatural trust fund baby, with a nice income and plenty of free time.

Until he is approached by an old friend, Jake.  Jake and his wife Marji have an open marriage and Sam used to be be Marji’s lover.  Now Marji’s new lover, Karin, has gone missing, and Jake wants Sam to go to Nightmare to bring her back.

Confused?  You won’t be after you read the first few chapters of Bad Dreams & Broken Hearts, a metaphysical soap opera by the author of The Book Of Lost Doors and based loosely on a crossbreed of Little Nemo In Slumberland and The Chronicles Of Amber.

I’m currently working on chapter four, which I expect will bring me up to about 10,000 words when I’m done with it.  At that point I’ll be looking for people to read what I have and give me their impressions.  So if you want to see what I’m doing next, you’ll have your chance soon.

I’ll keep you informed.

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My Review of Aaron Allston’s “Galatea In 2D”

New review up on the Castalia House Blog:  Aaron Allston’s Galatea In 2D

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Depression and the sophomore slump

While I finished what is technically my fourth novel a year ago, more and more I am thinking of The Book Of Lost Doors as one big story in four acts. I didn’t set out for it to be that, but that’s how it turned out.  So I think it’s fair to call what I am going through now a “sophomore slump”.

Part of it–a big part of it–is that I have serious doubts as to if I can do it again. BOLD brought together ideas that had been germinating for decades.  I started out with a lot to say, about life and love and madness and the universe and what it means to be a small thing in a night that is large and full of wonders.

Lately, though, I have been wondering if I have said it all.  I mean, maybe all that I have to say has already been said, and BOLD is my last word on the subject.  Any subject.

I put a lot of work in the cosmology of the series.  I drew on sources from William Burroughs to Charles Fort to Robert Anson Wilson to H P Lovecraft.  I put a lot of myself in James & Catskinner. His story is, in so many ways, my story.

And maybe it’s the only story I have to tell.

I won’t say that I haven’t done any writing over the past year.  I’ve written a number of short stories, two of which are damned good and the rest are at least fair.

But I have tried to start a half dozen or so novel projects, and every one of them has just… died. I started off strong, but after a chapter or two I lost interest.  And if a story can’t hold my interest, then how can I expect a reader to slog through it?

I do realize that a lot of this is depression.  I have had a very rough year, for reasons that I don’t really want to go into here. I’m exhausted.

But I have managed to work through exhaustion before.  Much of Cannibal Hearts was written during some very low points in my life (you can tell which parts–the funny bits.  I only laugh when I am trying to keep from crying.)   Heck, depression hit me during all of my prior novels.  It’s a cyclic thing with me.  I get depressed during those months that have weeks in them.

It’s more than just my brain chemistry.  I’ve lost my faith.  With BOLD I was driven.  I was like one of those ragged people you see standing in bus shelters in bad neighborhoods, who need to tell everybody how the Illuminati stole their tinfoil hats.

I don’t feel like that any more. And I miss it. I miss James & Catskinner, Samuel and Russwin, Agony and AJ and Nancy and Suzie.  I can understand why authors will stretch out a series to dozens of novels. I won’t do that, though.  Those characters were part of something that is over, done with, finished.  I owe it to them to let them leave the stage while they are still.. pure.  I can’t put it any better than that, the feeling–no, the certainty–that if I tried to force them into any more stories they would end becoming caricatures of themselves, like the Universal Studios monsters.  I’m not going to write Abbot & Costello Meet Catskinner. 

So what now?  I don’t know.  I know myself well enough to know that I’ll keep writing, here, elsewhere on the internet, to friends, for the occasional story collection or magazine. I have the skill and I enjoy utilizing it.  But I don’t know if I continue to try to be a Writer.

I think perhaps I’m done with that.  To those who read and enjoyed The Book Of Lost Doors, thank you.  It means a lot to me, I put my heart and soul into those books.  And I wish I could give you more, but I don’t think I can.

 

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My Review of Lucius Shepard’s “Green Eyes”

New review up on The Castalia House Blog:  Lucius Shepard’s Green Eyes.

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Last Week for a Big Push!

A week left to go!

Cirsova

It’s the last week of our Kickstarter for issues 3 & 4! We’ve been hovering around just $200 shy of our goal as backers tinker with their pledge levels down the final stretch.  To be safe, I’d like to see us well up over our $2500 goal so no last second surprises sink the ship.

Some things to consider:

-Backing for $1 gets you 3 issues

-Backing for $3 gets you all 4 of our 2016 issues

-We have a track record of delivering pledge rewards within about a month of the Kickstarter’s end date (two weeks for funds to process and about two weeks for fulfilled items to arrive.

-By those who have read us, we are considered one of the best new ongoing SFF publications on the market.

Please help us clear this hurdle so we’ll have funds to keep going in 2017!

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No more sonnets.

Not “no more sonnets ever”, but I’m not going to finish my 31 in 31 days.  Just got overwhelming after a while.

Still my favorite poetic form, though.

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Cirsova #3 & #4 Kickstarter

I’m very happy that we’ve had so much outside content worth sharing, as I’ve been so busy I haven’t had time to write nearly as much as I normally do. Copy edits are done on Issue 3, and I’m doing a secondary round of line-edits on Issue 4. A part of me wants to shill […]

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